As I set here, I read your post. And I want you to know how much it helped me. And Im sure alot of other parents that are without their child . Its comming up on Christmas, and I have one daughter that still lives at home. My other daughter dont want anything to do with me. This is going to be the second Christmas without her being here. I try to put on a happy face for my other daugher, but inside, there is a large hole that nothing can fill. I was to , a good mother, and did everything I could do for both my daughers. I to, just dont understand it. Ive tryed to talk to her, but she will not respond back. My youngest daugher thats home with me, says mom, just let her go. Its what she wants, and one day she will regreat it. But how can you let go. Its like part of you is missing. I try to seem happy and everthing is ok, cause of my other daughter. I dont want her to see how much Im hurting inside . I just dont understand, how someone you love, and just toss you aside, like you were nothing, and dont matter. I just cant get over that. Its been a year and a half. But, I just wanted you to know, your post , make my night alittle better. God bless everyone out there, and I hope they have a happy christmas. And knowing even if our child is not with us. They are were they are at, happy and alive. And that has to be our gift to ourselfs.