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It's so hard to live day to day with this incredible hurt wondering all the time what I must have done so wrong. I have 2 sons and we were all so close. I had such expectations for when they got married. I couldn't wait for this exciting new time in our lives. The problem was, I was the only one who wanted that. After they got married there were no more holidays, birthday celebrations—none at all. I got sick and went through everything alone. They live close by, but are too busy. In my heart I know that their father and I gave them the best home to grow up in. They acknowledge that thank goodness but don't care to spend time with us. It's become a lonely life and it hurts alot. I wish I knew what words to say to them so that they would understand without getting upset. Most of the time, I just feel so lost.

I was alienated from my daughter for many years, but never really saw it. I always kept an open communication with her and I always ended up feeling used and abused. After many years I realized she is a sociopathic liar and has sociopathic tendencies. After many years of soul-searching, and trying to understand why our relationship is always in "distress", I have finally accepted this bizarre relationship that we have. I do not get hurt or upset when she does not follow through with plans (meet you for dinner, call you in a couple days, etc.). She will not contact me for many, many months. At one point we did not speak for over one year. I had no way of contacting her since she moves a lot. I had to save myself from this type of relationship. I no longer blame myself, and I believe that is when the hurting stopped for me. Unfortunately, it took over 20 years. Eventually the sun does shine again for everyone facing these types of hurts and mental anguish.